Wednesday, July 31, 2013

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #24

Day 24, Oh Boy, how is it that time just vanishes before our eyes. I still feel jet lagged from the weekend. Think I need some creative play time!  I have to say a huge thank you to Deb for helping me go through the kit room today and getting everything back in order. So that is one huge job ticked off my list this week, now to go through all the stock and get it all packed away again too. Other than that nothing exciting happened today.

Still have a heap of photos to go through, just wanted to share this group photo at the end of the weekend, What a fabulous bunch of ladies who really did make the weekend something special.
Thank you to each and every one of you xxx

Ok I working the courage up for a couple of posts that will be pretty deep. Not sure if I am quite ready for it, but I know it won't just help me but others too. Wish me luck on that one!

Crap nearly midnight again already, I was planning of trying for an early night tonight. Umm what day is it today? Oh that's right Wednesday well not for much longer anyway.

What has everyone been up too? What are your goals you are working towards this week??
This week is clean up and organise week (and try and fit a little R&R in) and next week will be business week. Lots of goals to be working towards!

Night, Hope you have a lovely day tomorrow!

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #23

Day 23, can you believe it? I can't believe that I am still keeping up even with the week I have just had. I am still feeling pretty tired tonight and instead of actually taking a break today I have been battling through it to get the accounts out from the weekend! All done now So I will sleep well again tonight. I really do need to take a day off but with unpacking still to do I can't see that happening tomorrow. Man I have been dragging my feet!

It has been an emotional day for me today, the announcement was made that I am stepping down from Dusty Attic Admin & DT. Dusty has been a huge part of my journey these past few years and it is well and truly in my blood. I have been struggling to keep up with everything and getting my business off the ground. So I need to let go of some outside commitments so I can focus on some new projects. It was with a heavy heart that I had to step down from Dusty and was not a decision I took lightly, I have been with Dusty and Jen since the start, it really is like another family for me.

I need to get everything cleaned up and sorted out so I can seriously start planning my future, Lots of ideas and not enough time at the moment. Not enough energy more importantly. I need to take a little time for me after the hectic lead up and weekend last weekend to catch my breath.
I still have to go through the photos from the weekend too, Hopefully tomorrow.

Its already past midnight, I think I need to get to bed, I was actually in bed by 11.30pm last night so it was an early night for me.

I think I need to get lost in a little creative time too! I need to re evaluate my list tomorrow and pencil me in! LOL And Hubby too!  I need to get back into my Morning pages again, I can definitely tell when I haven't done them in awhile, I get so scatter brain and find it harder to concentrate! I have been forgoing the morning pages to take Maddie for a walk in the mornings. She is growing very quickly!

OK Time for bed, I am yawing now! Sleeps Time!

Night ALL xxxx

Monday, July 29, 2013

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #22

Day 22!!  It has been a day of recovery mode today, I am still pretty weary tonight! I got some of the stuff packed away, still have more to do tomorrow. The lovely Sharon Dalton come out for a cuppa this morning, it was nice to sit back and relax for 5. So in all it has been a pretty quiet day today. It will be back to cleaning out and putting away tomorrow!
Don't you hate the come down after a big event and after the lead up of all the work put into it! It was a fabulous weekend, I am so glad everyone had a great time :) Now to start getting ready for the next one on the 7th & 8th of September. Lots of Surprises coming for that one too, and a very special guest will be coming! Can't wait! Hopefully the next couple of months won't be as full on as the last couple. I think I need to take a me day soon though and recharge the batteries to go again! 
This was the Resin Class I taught on the weekend! It was definitely a hit!!
Very wise words to live by here! Take another shot! Just go for it! Trust your gut and grow, I think I will be repeating these words over the next month!!! Time I let go of the self doubt, reflecting on what I have just achieved on the weekend, and I still find it hard to give myself a pat on the back.
The feed back so far has been all positive so I need really take that all in!

This was the reverse canvas I taught. These classes will be available online soon! :)
OK gorgeous people, my brain might have a little bit more time for reflecting for a couple of weeks now, I won't be consumed with the workshop from daylight to dark, but I am hoping to concentrate on my business coaching for the next few weeks and really get some big dreams happening!!
Wish me luck! x

Night all, Might actually be in bed before midnight tonight, shock horror!! Most likely be up around 4am then! LOL but then again maybe not I have built up a fair bit of sleep debt lately!

Night x

Sunday, July 28, 2013

30 days of blog lovin - Day #21

Day 21, Home tonight after a huge day for the second day of my ScrapMedia workshop! I am in a slightly comatose state tonight! It was another fabulous day!
I got home around 7pm after packing everything up! Then I had to unpack everything out of the car, I had it half done before Wil come out to help me!
My legs, feet and back are killing me! Think I will allow myself to have a very quiet day tomorrow! I feel like I could sleep for a week! Tired would be an understatement lol! 
Anyway, all that stuff from the car has just made it to the dining room and table, I figure it will still be there in the morning! 

Time for another spring clean before it all goes back away tomorrow, that is if I can surface from bed! 

You think I would find a more comfy spot to get comatose in hey! Trying to find the energy for a shower and bed!  I don't think I left anything of me on the table this weekend, I am spent!

Night all xxx

30 Days of blog lovin - Day #20

Day 20,What a Day it has been! Everything has gone smoothly and I think everyone is having a great time! Lots of Laughs and Creative fun! I am ready for bed now though, I think I will be asleep before my head hits the pillow!

I posted my blog post last night from bed on my phone for the first time and hit publish then crashed and I was feeling pretty pleased that I still got it done last night, only to discover when we got to the workshop this morning after the girls all said "What happened to your blog post last night????  I said I did it, but when I checked my phone it hadn't gone through, so I hope that still counts, I did do it the night before well technically 90% of these blog posts have been done at midnight! LOL So I am right on cue tonight!!

Ok, I am fading fast now, I uploaded a couple of pics of the girls in action today on my Facebook page.

Another big day tomorrow then I can collapse in a heap! :O

Night xxx

Saturday, July 27, 2013

30 Days of blog lovin - Day #19

Day 19?? Is it I hope so lol, this post comes from me to you while I am in bed and posting on my phone!

It has been another massive day today, the hall is all set up and ready to go and I think everything is now organized! Phew! And you know what! To bad if its not now! Lol
My fabulous helpers setting up tonight, Donna, Tracey & Rosie! Thanks Girls! Couldn't have done it without you! And thank you to Rosie and Deb for helping to pack kits and also to Sharon and Tracey for all your help today too!

This place will be all abuzzz tomorrow! Can't wait! I need at least 6 hours tonight after not getting to bed until after 3am last night!

Ok short and sweet again! I am a little on the buggered side tonight! 
Night All!!!
Me xxxx

Thursday, July 25, 2013

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #18

Day 18, Boy what a day, Big day and its not over by a long shot. The stock I was waiting for arrived today so I am finishing this kit tonight. Just had the fabulous Deb here helping to pack more kits, I would be lost without her! Soooooo apart from finishing this kit and doing instructions for another one I think I might just be nearly organized by tomorrow!!!

In the one day today I have got my hair done (grey's begone!!! LOL Will get a pic when I have 5 min LOL!) , Had Christine here doing my books and we got the book work and BAS done and got more kits packed, vouchers done sorted through more stock, then finished packing more kits with Deb tonight! So has been another massive day tonight. I am picking Tracey up off the plane in the morning so I want to get as much done tonight as I can so I can take the foot of the pedal a bit tomorrow before we have to set up tomorrow night!! So forgive me once again but this is going to be very short and sweet tonight, I need to finish videoing this kit!

Night Beautiful Peeps! I hope the day has been kind to you? What are your plans for the weekend??

Take care!
Hugs xxx

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #17

Day 17: Howdy, I hope July is being kind to you and you are kicking some goals. As busy as I have been this week my head has not stopped thinking. Lots of future planning has been happening too! As well as the future workshop. I really will need to take some time out for me next week or I think I will collapse in a heap. And I only have myself to blame, it is all work I have put on myself and being a perfectionist I always seem to be creating more work for myself. I nearly forgot my blog post tonight, I am trying to get another kit created and lost all time!

This message is so true, I crawled into bed around 2am last night and just as my head hit the pillow these crazy thoughts started running through my head, more ideas!! But you know what I was so tired I couldn't even roll over and grab my pen and notebook and write them all down, then you guessed it and I went ARRRRRGH!! What was that bloody idea again?? I knew I should have written it down! Totally kicking myself then!! So I started on my morning pages and thank god for them, it came to me! It was about survey questions about finding my target market and more ideas on resources for teachers. So I managed to get them all down after all, (Thank you Morning Pages xxx)

 I actually woke up early and more surprisingly woke up with some energy too! Thank Goodness although I think I am just running on adrenaline at the moment!

 Love these Quotes!! So True!!

Anyway, I shall call it a night and finish this layout!
Night All xxx

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #16

Day 16: I think I was mad to do this 30 day blog loving with a Workshop coming up. Been at it all day again today and have another kit packed tonight thanks to the help of Deb! Everything is coming along nicely, just waiting on a couple of things to finish off the last kit, but it is still crazy hectic. I really don't have too much else going on in my head at the moment, It is all too consumed with the workshop from when I get up to when I collapse at night.

We are going to have so much fun playing with the resin this weekend. I already have plans for another class because I couldn't fit it all in to this one!

 Since I am  feeling pretty brain dead tonight I thought I would share a funny with you. My dear son (18) asked me the other week if I wanted the watermelon in the fridge, I said no you can eat it.
He was waiting for one of us to eat it, and couldn't wait any longer and he said "I already have" LOL The he showed me the back of it! LOL
 Totally cracked me up, he had already scooped out the back waiting to catch someone out!  It's a bugger when a prank doesn't go to plan. Still made me laugh when he showed me! LOL

Ok, back to work, Still have a bit to do tonight and feeling pretty tired now! I think I will collapse in a heap next week! :)

Night, Sorry I am boring as bat shit at the moment, these workshops totally consume me with making everything just right for everyone!


Monday, July 22, 2013

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #15

Day 15, Hiya! I hope everyone has had a productive Monday. I don't think I have stopped today. Slowly getting everything in order for the workshop this weekend, Got a few more things ticked off my list and confirmed today. Still feeling like I need to catch up on some sleep. Had a day of feeling very much overwhelmed today.

Sorry I haven't really got time to stop tonight for a decent post, but lets just say that I have been giving my future some serious consideration amongst all the calls and organizing today. The workshop has consumed my whole day today and I am just finishing up instructions before I head to bed. Fast running out of days and so much to do! 

I  don't know if it is the stress of getting everything done and still waiting on orders or what it is but I have been feeling very overwhelmed today. I have had to keep ploughing through with everything that needs doing, I think I nearly ticked everything off my list today so that is a plus!

It will be all worth it in the end, I think the fact that I am still struggling with feeling tired today hasn't been helping. Tomorrow is a new day hopefully I will feel like I am back on track again tomorrow!

Back to doing instructions, I will catch you all tomorrow! Thank you so much for your comments, they really do mean the world to me!!

Night x
Hugs xx

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #14

Day 14, I am impressed that I am still going, almost half way! This next week is going to be crazy. It doesn't seem to matter how organized you are when a deadline is looming the job list to be done seems to grow by the minute! 

I want to talk about the hardest job in the world tonight, and it is a job that you never get time off with or holidays and you are on call 24/7 for the rest of your life, And that is being a parent and in particular a mother.

We all just want our kids to be happy and be well balanced. We want to give them everything that we didn't have growing up, but in doing that are we protecting them from life too much. Are we making them less resilient. I worry all the time if I have done enough for my kids, have I instilled enough in my kids for them to believe they can be anything they want to be? I am learning that no matter how talented they might be and how much I have tried to teach them to reach for the stars and dream big and to believe in themselves, I feel like I have failed them. I can see the lack of confidence in them that has been in me my whole life. I now realize that it doesn't matter how much I tell them to be confident and to achieve their dreams unless I show them that I can do it how can they do what I preach and not practice myself. I think this is really the driving force behind me wanting my business to be a success and achieve my dreams and that is to show my kids that they can do it too!

I am extremely proud of both my kids and think that they are both beautiful young adults. We always want to think the best of our kids and will defend them till our dying breath. But I have moments were I worry that they are not on their own paths to success and don't have the drive and ambition to go after their dreams. I know they will get there one day.  I just hope it doesn't take them 40 years to find their passions and successes and work out what makes them happy. I worry that I didn't push them enough through their schooling. I constantly have to stop myself comparing them and myself with others. 

I worry that Leonii (now 20) is working in a job that is not really her future, although she is enjoying it most of the time, it is not a job that will nurture her creative soul. She is ready to start looking at doing more creative studies now and I really hope that she can work towards her passions sooner rather than later. I know that her confidence is holding her back, how can I expect her to believe in herself when I couldn't show her how to do that myself. I feel like she is settling rather than going after what she really wants. We have a great relationship and I feel so blessed that we have always been able to talk about anything. She truly is the young lady that I always wished I was growing up. Even though she portrays external confidence I can see through that and see the old me and it just breaks my heart.

Wil (18) on the other hand I feel like I have let down as I don't feel like communication has come as easily with him. Growing up in a family of 3 girls and having a daughter first I have found it harder to really communicate with him. I think I just thought that boys didn't have confidence issues like girls. He is an amazing and loving young man and I am also very proud of him. Even though I have been able to talk about anything with him, I can't really explain it, it is just a communication gap that I feel like I am failing him with. He has been spending more and more time playing online games and I can see that it is becoming a problem with him spending so much time in his room and less and less socializing. Although he says that he is socializing online with lots of people. He goes to the gym maybe once a week but outside of work he doesn't spend too much time out of his room. He will do jobs for me, after I ask him a few times but only if he is asked. He is going through the interview process for joining the army, and as much as I don't want him to do that I think it will be the best thing for him.  (Isn't it sad that I had trouble finding a recent layout of him on his own. It is hard to get him in front of the camera, Think I need to do something about that.)

I think the biggest thing that is hitting home to me, is that I spend way too much time working in the office and on the computer and trying to learn how to use this social media marketing tool and that one, and I have realized that I am doing the same thing working in here day after day night after night. I do talk with him everyday, but not near enough and not nearly enough quality conversations. Breaks my heart that in the pursuit of achieving my dreams to show my kids to believe in themselves and how to be confident that I have just taught them to shut themselves off from the physical world and that striving for your dreams is a struggle. 
I can see now that it doesn't matter if it is gaming or working that we definitely need more balance in our lives and more real life connections.

I am always turning down offers to catch up with friends for drinks or coffee because I have been so busy trying to achieve my dreams, and feel like I don't have the time to take time out on my self imposed schedule. So that being said, This week I went to friends to watch the State of Origin on Wed night and I caught up with the neighbours last night for a couple of drinks and friends this afternoon for drinks and a BBQ. I know I need to find more balance and to get out more. And I know that I need to work smarter to make these things happen. I know that I need to re-valuate my priorities.

I know half of this probably doesn't make sense, trying to articulate these thoughts and feelings is not easy for me. This is one of those raw topics that I constantly question if I have done enough for my kids. I know I haven't let them down completely, I know that they know how much I love them, well at least I hope they do, and I am extremely proud that they are considerate and loving young adults they are becoming, I just hope they can live their dreams and find true happiness! I know that is the true definition of success now!   

I managed to get a little bit of sleep in this morning, although I could hear Don checking on me every half hour or so to see if I was stirring LOL. Anyway I woke up feeling like I hadn't slept at all. I struggled all day with feeling super tired. I kept trying to fight it and attempt to do some work, but my body had well and truly shut down, so I looked on Pinterest for some inspiration on renovating our house and yard. Found some great ideas for outdoor living HERE :)
Then I gave in to the tiredness and went and had a sleep then we went to friends for the afternoon. So in all I think it was the break I well and truly needed today.

Lots to do tomorrow, only 5 days until my ScrapMedia Workshop so it is going to be madness here for the next week! :)
Night All, I should get to bed so I at least feel a bit more refreshed tomorrow!

Saturday, July 20, 2013

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #13

Day 13, Seriously where is the time going?? The days are just going past in a blur! Another very busy day today. An extra week this week wouldn't go astray! Anyone got a spare one I can borrow??
The morning started out with getting side tracked with these gorgeous creatures this morning. Maddie will have been with us for one week tomorrow, it is hard to believe it feels like she has been here a lot longer. She has filled out so much in less than a week. I videoed her helping get the chooks in tonight, she is definitely a quick learner. I will have to upload the video on facebook or here tomorrow.

These two rabbits where up in the tree this morning, they had fun playing up there and just hanging around.

Fatso is our uncoordinated cat, so I was impressed she was up this high and didn't fall out.

I love how they both found forks in the tree to park their fat arses! LOL

Sadie is our stealth cat, she can usually get up anywhere and in a very dainty fashion.

"Does this tree make my bum look big?? LOL"
So after the animal antics this morning it was time to get to work. Was a big day today. Poor Christine had a mountain of bookwork to enter, and Rosie come over and helped to pack some kits. Then Deb popped over this afternoon to help finish the packing. The challenge pack is all finished one kit down and 2 to go!

Chairs make great benches for packing kits, there was a kit on every spare bit of space.
Oh And yes that is a bag on Deb's head, I send them looney around here! ROFL!!!!

Thank you so much to Christine, Rosie & Deb for your help today, really does help me so much. I usually struggle to ask for help and still do. Not sure if it is out of pride or what, a major part of it is not wanting to interrupt people as I know how busy everyone's lives get.
   But the laughs and friendship hardly make it feel like you are working! It is so worth it. Many hands sure do make like work! :)

OK I am going to attempt to get to bed before midnight tonight only 30 min to go and I think I just might turn into a pumpkin tonight I am so tired! Feels like my eyes are hanging out of my head tonight!

Night all! More sorting and kit packing on the agenda tomorrow!

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #12

Day 12, already?? Where is the time going, it is flying by in the blink of an eye! Each week feels like it comes around quicker and quicker it just feels like deja vu each Friday.
I have had a very busy and productive day today, I have got all the dreaded paperwork in order for the wonderful Christine to enter tomorrow. Then we will start packing kits! It is getting so close now, still a bit to be done but I think everything is pretty much under control! I have already started planning the next workshop that will be on the 7th & 8th of September I will have a special guest tutor coming!! You definitely won't want to miss that one! 

This morning all the whistler ducks were back, they are funny how they all perch themselves on the roof of the stables. I like the serious of shots I captured this morning.

 This one looks like they are saying "How are we going to get down from here?"
 "What about over here?" "You go first, no you go first!"

"Nope try this way!" "Follow Me!"
  LOL, Sorry small things amuse me! 

Maddie has settled in so well, she has filled out so much in a week, it is like she has always been here. So happy to have a dog around the house again. She is just beautiful. 

I love Friday nights one of my favourite shows is on, "So You Think You Can Dance" I think I have watched just about every season of the American version and loved the Aussie one when they had it! I hope they do another one here. So many totally amazing and talented dancers, what they can do with their bodies. 

After another late night last night I had an early start again this morning with Solar Panel guys here to fix some of our solar panels tuned up just after 7, they weren't supposed to be here until 8. So my me time to do my morning pages was out the window this morning it was up go, and I don't think I have stopped since my feet hit the floor today.
OK so I have another busy day ahead of me tomorrow and another early start, think I will need an early night before midnight soon I am starting to get a bit weary! Will be nice if I can get a sleep in on Sunday!  I cooked the yummiest tea tonight too, Beef BBQ Ribs in the slow cooker, it was divine!

So I think I will leave it there for now the brain is a bit mush tonight!

Night All, Sweet Dreams x

Friday, July 19, 2013

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #11

Day 11 and I nearly forgot tonight. I have been so busy with getting things organized for the workshop next weekend. It is all coming together. But my head has been overloaded today sorting paper work, sorting out the itinerary and sorting out a new website. Phew Now where was I up to?
There are only 2 spots left for the ScrapMedia Workshop, It can be for the weekend or you can come for the one day if it suits, either the Sat or the Sun. You can see more info about it HERE

Here is the sneak peek for the Resin class, I can't wait to teach this one, it is going to be so much fun!
I am just waiting on a few things to finish the reverse canvas class!

Ok, I am looking at a new direction for my website now, so hopefully I will have the shop up sooner rather than later!! It has been a long 6 months waiting but I am moving on! Onwards and Upwards hopefully! It is a bit exciting, although my mind is trying to keep up at the moment!

It has been a long day today, I was up early this morning so I need to finish off a couple more things and head to bed. The Itinerary is done so I will get that out tomorrow!

 I am working my way up to a couple of topics that are pretty sensitive to me and I am not quiet sure if I am ready to share yet, But I think it will totally free me if I can! x
Sorry I am going to make this short and sweet tonight, I am soo tired. So I will catch you tomorrow.

Hope you have been having a productive week!
Hugs x

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #10

Day 10!!! GOOO Queenslander!!! Lets hope they can make it 8!!! I am off to friends tonight to watch the game, I think it is going to be a good one!! Soo I am getting in early tonight!
I had a reasonably successful day today and got a few things ticked off my list, but then I realized that the next ScrapMedia workshop is sneaking up very very fast. I better get some finalizing done!

Ok I don't have so much to share tonight, it is going to be a big day tomorrow with lots on. So I hope to get a few more jobs ticked off my list!

On the Maddie front, she herded the chooks in tonight and didn't try to eat them, I can't believe how quickly she is learning in just 3 days!! As Christine said it is almost like Tilly is teaching her from the other side! She is so eager to please!

And I really think yesterdays post helped shift something too, It has helped to release that worry about what other people are thinking about me! I am slowly becoming more comfortable in my own skin!! I started going through my wardrobe this morning and have started throwing stuff out! I even had to throw out a pair of Colorado leather shoes that disintegrated when I tried them on! Ooops! LOL I am finding that things don't last as long here with the higher humidity we get here! I hate shoe shopping but I desperately need new shoes and comfortable ones at that!

Ok I have places to be tonight, Go Queenslanders!!!!! I will catch you tomorrow! :)
(For my overseas friends the State of Origin Rugby League Football is on tonight, it is Queensland State against New South Wales State and Queensland have won the last 7. It is the best of Three and they have both won one round each so tonight is the decider, it is going to be a big game!)
I am not usually into the football so much since Wil stopped playing, but the Origin is worth watching!
Night all!! Cheers! :)

30 Days of Blog Lovin ~ Day #9

Day 9 already, I can't believe I am still going really! Following through is not always my strong point with this sort of commitment. But I am here again and I have no idea what is going to unfold today.

I did manage to get a couple of pics of Maddie today, she is such a quick learner, is sitting when asked most of the time and can go and get a ball and bring it back. I introduced her to the chooks and cats today and kept her on the lead incase. So far so good, she didn't really seem interested in chasing them when they were standing around, but as soon as they run she wanted to go after them. Not sure whether she just wants to play with them or try to eat them yet, Not going to give her the opportunity either until she has settled in a bit more. She really has such a lovely nature and is full of energy.

Ok so I have had a bit of time to really think about things these past 9 days. I have really had to rethink why I am doing this blog challenge in the first place. I had to remind myself that I am doing this to find my voice and to find the real me.

Well I think my ego thought better and somehow it come back to writing what I think people want to hear and want to know. I felt so free after the first couple of posts but no so much since then. Your support from the first couple of post made me feel accepted and no so alone and I felt like I was on the right track. But when I didn't get as many comments on the next couple I quickly felt like I didn't have anything worthwhile to say and insecurities ran riot again! The ego was taking over again.
I quickly realized I had lost track of why I am doing this in the first place. I need to remember that I am not doing this for the wonderful comments so many of you have given me, and while I will always be extremely grateful for all your support, and I can't thank you enough truly from the bottom of my heart but I know that I need to keep this real first and foremost for myself. And please this is not a request for comments. I am just glad you dropped by and have no expectations of anyone, I know that we are all busy with our day to day lives.

Completely unedited pic of me EEEK! No make up and no photoshop.
Still the question remains who is the real me. For far to long I have let my past define me and for the first time I am starting to entertain the idea that maybe I am free to define the future that I want and who I want to be. After all it is my story isn't it and I can write the chapters to what ever I would like, so why not entertain the thought that I can be what ever I want to be and have what ever I want in life. With the business coaching with Nicola we have to write our goals and plan our future dreams. I have found this confronting to believe that I can dream big and have big goals. Can I really dare to dream that big? The minute I start dreaming big I get extremely overwhelmed. How can I possible achieve all that? The negative voices say to me that I can't do that, your not smart enough, or well dressed enough or pretty enough or skinny enough and the voices go on and on. The biggest one at the moment is that I am not smart enough.

But funnily enough the breakthrough I had in the last week was with my style and my wardrobe and my thinking. After pinning a few outfits into my style board on Pinterest I was typically looking for things that I thought I could wear or pull off, but then I had a thought what if I just pin what I would love to wear IF I thought I could wear anything, of course that would mean losing at least 20kg but hey I can dream can't I. I find that with working from home that I have over time taken less care of my appearance, living in the daggy comfy clothes that I don't have to worry about getting paint on, you know the ones that you wouldn't be caught dead in up town. But I am thinking I am going to start a new vision board of the new style I would like to emulate and put it up in my bedroom. Then I am going to have a huge clean out of my wardrobe and start working towards my new image. So this is one little thing that I can start to change. Hopefully everything, even the body starts morphing into my new dream style. My new Pinterest Style Board.

As far as the not being smart enough one goes, I don't know how to overcome that one. It is so hard not to compare yourself to others, which always makes me feel inadequate compared to others. I feel like a fake at times. Yeah I know I need to give myself more credit and I am proud of all that I have achieved so far, but it is still these little things holding me back. Hopefully it will be something as simple as pinning that can help me shift my attitude and outlook with all my other insecurities too. I still have a long way to go.

So I think on this journey to find the real me Is more about who I want to be and less about who I was. I can't change any of my past but I can see that it is more about my present that defines me now, and I have the power to write the next chapter in my story for what ever that might be.

On a lighter note I will leave you with this pic I took this afternoon of our cows with a few new friends that have been hanging around for a couple of weeks, did you see all the ducks on the roof?? There have been heaps of these whistler ducks hanging around lately!

OK until tomorrow peeps, Time for me to start shutting everything down now!

And I just want to give a shout out to Theresa, thank you for coming along for the ride hun, you should start a blog I would come and read it. I would love to hear your story too!

Night all xxx

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